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Kevin von G's avatar

Hi Robert. Thank you for responding to my question about my NDE/OBE. Any thoughts on my experience would be greatly appreciated!

Several years ago I received a really bad concussion/MTBI/neck injury during my annual training with the Army National Guard. The first several months after my injury I was in a complete daze while suffering from intense headaches and nerve pain. Over the next several years, I suffered from headaches that were so intense I went to the emergency room for IV pain treatment and to make sure that my brain wasn't hemorrhaging. On one of my visits, I had an experience while laying in the bed for IV treatment and medical tests.

The pain was very intense and I blacked out/left my body. In spiritual bodily form I moved towards what can only be described as THE sun. What I saw was very similar to the sunlike paintings of God by NDE artist David Ditchfield. As I moved closer to the sun I was terrified. My spirit body started to shake like it was about to explode or dissipate in all directions and into nothingness. I was so afraid that my spirit asked to be returned to my body because I knew that if I travelled any closer to this sun that I would die both physically and spiritually. With this, I was returned to my body.

Ever since I returned, it is as if half or even 2/3 of me burned away in the spirit world. It is also as if only a small part of me is here in this reality and the rest is in the timeless spirit world. I have since lost interest in most things in this world (which is a problem because I have a PhD in International Relations and am supposed to teach about current events).

Now, all I want to do is sit, meditate, go for walks, and do yoga.

My questions are:

1) What do you think happened to me?

2) Why was my experience of moving towards THE sun so hellish?

3) How do I manage now? Surely, I am supposed to have some purpose in this world. I no longer have any ambition.

Thank you, Robert!

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Christof's avatar

Another great one Robert,

thanks,there is something about the intensity and clarity in your words that remind me of my beloved sokei-an,another great teacher who brought the darma to the west,

for the sake of all beings to awaken

and thanks for explaining it to others;)

yours christof

but when you first embark on the path,your awareness wont be focused.youre likely to see all sorts of strange ,dreamlike scenes,

but you shouldnt doubt that all such scenes come from your own mind and nowhere else.

if,as in a dream,you see a light brighter than the sun,your remaining attachments will suddenly come to an end and the nature of reality will be revealed,such an occurence serves as a base of enlightenment.

but this is something only you know

you cant explain it to others

quote from bodhidharma

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